Hello all. I'v been gone for about 2 weeks now and a lot has changed in that amount of time, or at least it feels like alot. First, let's get the big one out of the way. It's looking as tho the marriage has come to its end. I've done too many things wrong, and I haven't been the husband that she needed me to be. Honestly, I can't really blame her for not wanting to work things out. While It hurts more than anything that two weeks into me trying to change myself, she's done. Granted, I dropped a huge bomb on her just before I left, but I just really wanted her to be the person that wouldn't leave. I guess all people have their breaking points, I found hers.
Second, yesterday marked 14 years since my mothers suicide. My wife told me she wanted a divorce two days prior. No, I'm not in a good head space. In fact, I'm really all over the place.
I'm currently spending a few days in Sacramento to try and think and ride around. If you wanna hang out, text me.
gotta make this short. paying 17 cents a min to get this blog out.
oh, 16 days without a drink.
YAY about the no drinking for 16 days. I am sorry about the other stuff. Stay strong Gary.
ReplyDeleteI know it's tough times now, friend, but always remember that when you're at rock bottom, the only place to go is up.
ReplyDeleteGood to hear from you again.